Back and tired

June 29, 2009| Filed Under: Family, Jobs, Life, Rants| 2 Comments

I know that I’ve fallen off a little bit from blogging. I’m just trying to get myself together and pick myself up. I’ve been so tired lately but much better than usual. I’ve been taking my vitamins and my medication again so I’ve been feeling a lot better than usual. Lets see. So I went to New York to visit my friend this past weekend. It was okay, I just didn’t enjoy the traveling. I would rather have taken a car, but I don’t like driving so that’s another story. Anyway, I took Amtrak. It’s a train that you can get to go where ever. I caught it from Philly and took it to Penn Station in New York. She met me at Penn Station. From there we took another train, a shuttle, and the subway to get to her parent’s house. She doesn’t live with them, but we both went for the weekend. All together it too 4 hours but it was a lot of walking and a lot of dealing with people all up on me. Traveling was so so tiring and overwhelming, I swear I’ve only been to New York a few times but I am really not used to that city. If she hadn’t met me at the station to get the other train train, the shuttle, and the subway , I wouldn’t have found my way. I would have gotten lost. Everything was just so much bigger and faster and had way more people than what I’m used to. So I got back last night and then spent time with my boyfriend who I missed so much. Next month I will be off to Ohio for two days to visit my brother.

Moving on…here is some interesting news. The job that laid me off for “no more than 4 weeks” that turned into 6 months called me and asked me to “substitute” for some teachers that would be out for a few days at the daycare. At first I didn’t want to because I was a Pre-K teacher before and it’s like now I’m getting called into be a substitute. It was like a slap in the face. But I took it anyway because it’s money and it’s something to do. That means I have to report it to unemployment though when I go to claim my benefits. I will still be collecting, just less money since I’m working. They also asked me to do a art camp and a music camp for 3 weeks because that’s my area so I’m very excited about that.

I went to Victoria’s Secret today and they had a sale 10 for $40 and 50%-75% off of sprays, lip gloss, etc. I couldn’t let that pass me by. I can’t believe that June went by so fast. Now it’s about to be July. My family reunion is coming up on July 18th which is also my brother’s birthday. I’m excited to see all of my family. It’s going to be held at my house. The time is getting closer and closer until I go back to school. I’m really nervous because I have really really bad performance anxiety sometimes and I get all shaky and nervous. It’s really bad. I know that as a grad student I will have to do a lot of performing so that is something that I will have to get over. I just hope that everything goes okay. I love my voice teacher that I’m with but I feel like shes not really doing anything to help develop my voice or get over my anxiety. I tried talking to her and she said I just don’t practice enough which is true but even when I was practicing i felt this way. She’s a mezzo soprano if any of you know what that is and her warm up techniques are just not working for me. The first thought is to find someone else right? Well other teachers are very expensive not to mention when I start school in 5 weeks I will have someone that I will be with for 2 whole years so I think I’m just going to stick it out and TRY to practice every day. Well this is getting long. I’m off to return comments. I hope everyone is enjoying their summer.